I lost something that I never had

The spaces between us were integrating

             And so was my state of conscience

She is the reason for my existence

             For my soul and the deep state of sense

But even before the realization of dreams

             The story took a turn for sad

Before I could even confess

             I lost something that I never had

Tragic were the turns through which I went

             But surprising was the satisfaction

She is in love with somebody else

             Her confession lies in every action

I’m happy for the match she found

             As I lack the qualities that he had

My dearest love was still with me

             When I lost something that I never had

To bury my desires deep under

             And bury through all that I’d been

Make me forget all those evenings

             Every instance that we spent and seen

May she always remain happy

             This intrinsic desire I always had

But one paradox that still exists

             I lost something that I never had

Mysterious smile

Your confessions may not be assertive

             But understanding needs for a while

Whenever that blessed topic comes

             And you reveal that mysterious smile

Emotions can’t be hidden

             For as a mirror is the face

You can hide it from the world

             But friends catch its pace

The special person when enters the words

             Your face brightens like crystal sunshine

The world can be fooled around

             But friends travel a different line

If it is present there

             Just try and bring it out

Your life will change in a blessed way

             That person whom you can’t live without

It’s my request, you accept this fact

             The journey is more than a mile

Instead of showing those subtle nuances

             Try to reveal the mysterious smile

Stay in my dreams

In my every dream

             She does come to meet

I die to see that subtle glance

             As soothing as her heartbeat

I wish I could confess my love

             And make her forever mine

But still I say, ‘Stay in my dreams’

             As that dream is more divine

I search for her in the cool moon light

             I see her face in the morning dew

Her remembrance throughout the night

             Makes her special amongst the few

I wish she knew about this

             But conscience keeps me bound

That’s why I say, ‘Stay in my dreams’

             So that it is never ever found

Beyond expectations

Though I wasn’t that desperate

             Still I couldn’t believe on my fate

The day I found that sweet nice person

             Who fortunately was my classmate

Friends were there

             But all that friendship was meaningless

With an in-depth heart I realized

             The true feeling of friendliness

The bad person in me

             Was a selfish of its own kind

But her selfless love and care

             Transformed my whole mind

Her qualities were beyond expectations

             As she left me totally spellbound

My destiny was generous on me

             For such a nice friend I’d found

Who you are?

I feel so secure when you hold my hand

The cuddling and scolding makes me stand

Who you are,

             When you’re ready to sacrifice even your share

For the sake of nothing

             You shower that motherly care

Every moment shared is so valuable

You are the person, I find most amiable

Who you are,

             When your love has such an addiction

I find myself indebted

             When you shower that sisterly affection

In the brink of a trouble you lean on me

You share your smile even tears with me

Who you are,

             When your trust is in abundance

I feel my responsibility

When you show your child like dependence

Every relation has a color of yours

In every feeling I find your source

I know who you are

             That is the reason why I care

I wish you happiness throughout your life

             And a friendship forever to share

Somebody tell me

Every moment you stay in front of my eyes

Your every thought makes me feel nice

When some of my dreams start to materialize

Somebody tell me, what should I realize?

Somebody tell me,

Why do I stare at the stars in the night

Searching for your face in the cool moon light

When my breath seems to go light

Somebody tell me, about my heart’s only plight

Somebody tell me,

             How to interpret my dreams

How to react in such situations

             And how to control the flow of stream

Why do I trust you so much

             The reasons need to be seen

Somebody please tell me

             How this all had been

Listen, oh beloved!

When my heart musters enough courage

             To tell you that I love you the most

You listen, oh beloved!

             My feelings that I host

When the moonlight walks down the steps

             As the soothing rays touch my heart

Basking in that full moonlight

             My senses forget all their part

Amongst all when I get your glimpse

             So similar as the cool moonlight

You listen, oh beloved!

             To my heart’s full delight

When you go away from me

             It seems as if you are world apart

Though I pretend as if to control myself

             Still I miss you, in whole and in part

I die to hear your subtle soft voice

             As we’re not able to meet

You listen to me, oh beloved!

             So listen to my heartbeat

Desperate desires & desperate dreams

Life seems like scattered beads

             I try hard to keep them tight

All the aspects related to them

             Fall in dark even in light

My efforts are not enough

             Still my emotions flow in streams

How relevant are they for me

             My desperate desires, my desperate dreams

Every decision of my lifetime

             And every person my heart could hold

All depend on these desires

             Their importance turns manifold

Though my dreams are not justified

             At my present state of being

Still I say I want to fulfill

             My desperate desires and desperate dreams

If these desires don’t get fulfilled

             My personal life faces the blues

I may not get a better chance

             To convince them through my views

Don’t want to miss the golden opportunity

             My heart sometime screams

I pray to God to fulfill them

             My desperate desires and desperate dreams

The first push

All is not in my control

             For I hate driven by situations

Circumstances rule my senses

             And I hate these untoward creations

When I haven’t done the requisite

             For the failure then it haunts

But the need has leaps beyond expectations

             That’s why the first push I want

Subsequent stages may not be easy

             But I have the energy to overcome them

I can prove this in every way

             That I’m better than any of them

Stopping me to get the first push

             All odds form heap and mount

Hundred reasons could stop me through

             That’s why the first push I want

It’s the matter of life and death

             For dreams and desires are related

Every link bears a stretch

             As if now or even belated

Every second of life does count

             Of every comment I bear the taunt

The limits of tolerance have been reached

             And that’s why the first push I want

Eternal bonds

When I was a child

             I just could not understand

My bonds with this rain

             And where my love did stand?

The touch of those droplets

             Seemed to be quite familiar

Their rustling sounds amongst the wind

             Made me feel there’s someone near

The breeze ran cool

             And the fragrance in the air

Always tempted my instincts

             With someone I wanted to share

Then one day I met that person

             And the whole mystery unfolds

Her relation with the tempting rain

             Through the bond that she holds

The bond that she holds

             With the rain clouds and thunders

That whenever it rains

             I miss her no wonder!

Dreaming of those evenings

             In the rains when we meet

We spend our time all together

             Just walking down the street

And then I realized it was she

             Whose fragrance was in the air

Her touch was similar to the droplets

             And with only her I want to share

Want to share, not just an evening

             But every rain of my life

Strengthen up these eternal bonds

             So we could support through every strife

Someday it’ll all be over

We’ll hold back the tears

             As it’s no better time to remember

Sunny days will soon outshine

             Someday it’ll all be over

Here every way turns out to be puzzling

And darker evenings than ever before

When no mortal comes for our support

Yet we crave and fight for more

Let this world stand in our way

             And even if the days become darker

One day God will show his mercy

             Some day it’ll all be over

I understand these difficult times

And we’ll see them off together

The bonds of love are going to strengthen

One day we’ll be happy forever

Our friendship tends to be at stake

             But I know the bonds are stronger

Let them stretch yet not break

             Some day it’ll all be over

Spellbound

We’re gonna fly through our dreams

             Over the sky and all around

We’re gonna remember every moment

             And enjoy the love new found

We’re gonna hold each other’s hand

             And vow to remain forever bound

And that’s the reason this love exists

             As we’re gonna spellbound

We’re gonna die into each other’s arm

             Even if the death so hounds

We’re gonna embrace each other

             And listen to the heartbeat sound

We’re gonna show this world

             That our love has been found

This being the first test of our love

             As we’re gonna spellbound

Divine creator

I wonder what your eyes have in store

In its periphery or in its core

That mystical depth I try to memorize

Its every little detail I try to summarize

             How could God make you so beautiful?

             How tremendous is that innovator?

             I’m grateful to him till the last breath

             For he is no doubt the divine creator

I wonder from where you develop that smile!

I wonder how distinct is your every style!

All the questions that your smile generates

And all the puzzles that it creates

             How could God be so generous to you?

             And how good is he the innovator

             For the sweet warm smile that he’s given you

             I’m grateful to that divine creator

I wonder of your eyelids and their natural shades

In front of your looks every beauty fades

When they slowly rise to have a look at me

Revealing those black eyes where my future I could see

             I know God has made you for me

             And that’s why he is such an innovator

             Every quality that I desired

             Has been put in you by the divine creator

My Valentine

When all my friends take away their part

And even the shadows split apart

You stand there firm in a bright sunshine

And that’s the reason I need you

             My love, My Valentine

You prefer to share those secret glances

Those puzzling eyes have subtle nuances

They try to speak as if you are mine

And then try to declare

             My love, My Valentine

In my small heart you do reside

And when you smile my all pains subside

Your every little stance falls in my line

And that is why you are

             My love, My Valentine

Those drooping eyelids are so irresistible

They make me crazy yet I feel comfortable

The innocence of your face is so crystalline

I recognized you at once

             My love, My Valentine

Your simple sober face is your inner reflection

That caring attitude showers your affection

The trust of your is a feeling divine

And that is why I love you

             My love, My Valentine

Amongst the crowd when I stand all alone

For you only my emotions have flown

Even if the experiences aren’t fine

I’m going to love you

             My love, My Valentine

Your little confession

You try to deny every little fact

             And you try to hide all your emotions

But how so hard you try to resist

             Your eyes reveal your little confession

You say that you don’t love me

             Yet you die to hear my voice

How crazy you sometimes become

             When you hardly have any other choice

You try to deny every beat of your heart

             And you try to hide all intimation

But I saw this right from the start

             That your smile reveals your little confession

You say that it hardly matters

             That whether we meet or not

Yet you dream for that romantic twilight

             And I know you miss a lot

You try to deny every dream that you see

             And still continue this subtle relation

I’m dying to hear that ‘I Love You’

             As I’m waiting for your little confession

Dying for a glimpse

One meeting for a few hours

             Wasn’t enough to content my heart

I wish I could talk to you more

             Before we eventually went apart

I wish I could look into those eyes

             Throughout the evening till the dawn

Getting lost in their depth

             Preferring to move on and on

All these days after we went apart

Recalling every moment right from the start

Dying for a glimpse of those dazzling eyes

On this earth or in paradise

Your voice I could hear

             Through my sub-conscious mind

And a subtle touch of yours

             Could turn me a desperate blind

The last call from you

             Has turned to be my lifeline

I’m waiting for the next

             As I believe that you are mine

Is the spark of love the same in you?

And are the breaths same old or new?

Are you also dying for a meeting so nice?

As I’m dying for a glimpse of your eyes

Call

Your call,

Brings the end of my waiting

             The counting of those every second

Synchronizes my heart’s beating

Every instance that I could imagine

             Every feeling my heart could hold

A single call from your side

             Turns my love manifold

It’s your call

My blind conscience says

             Whenever that blessed phone rings

Either in the night or through the days

I rush somehow to get hold of it

             Before the ceaseless ringing could stop

And if it’s not a call from your side

             I couldn’t resist my tears to drop

Your call,

Could turn all grieves into happiness

             The moment I hear your subtle soft voice

Full of innocence or immense shyness

I pray to God

             That may this call never end again

As a single call from your side

             Heals my grieves and all the pain

Deny me not

Deny me not

When I take you in my arms

             When my imaginations turn all wild

Still I prefer to stay in trance

It’s the depth of your eyes

             In which I was totally caught

I wish to keep looking into them

             So now please deny me not

Deny me not

When I kiss you on your cheeks

             When I sense the fragrance of your breath

Through the ambience which it seeks

It’s the confluence of the twilight

             As the beauty which you’ve got

Even if I lose all my senses

             Still you please deny me not

Deny me not

When I say I love you the most

             ‘Cause I know you love me too

Through the feelings that you host

You’re the creation of the divine creator

             As the qualities that you ought

I wish to spend this life with you

             So now please deny me not

Heartbeats

She says that I’m crazy

             And she says that I dream

But I prefer to make my confessions

             So should I speak or should I scream?

I desire to look into her eyes

             But on the phone only the voice greets

But that isn’t a problem any more

             As she understands all my heartbeats

It’s the effect of these heartbeats

             Which I could feel jumping inside

Through the extremes of all my emotions

             In her heart do I reside?

Though she never tells it directly

             But the way in which she treats

Makes me think for a second time

             That she understands my heartbeats

I never found a person better than her

             I never felt this ever before

She came in my life all of a sudden

             And my happiness was so much more

There maybe a few of those hurdles

             But together we are going to meet

Only if she promises to support

             And to understand my heartbeats

Bequeathed bride

It’s the second round of life

             When the bequeathed bride cries

When her fortune takes those drastic turns

             In that moment when she tries

The revelation of her fate

             Amongst those salty tears

Assuming all the good

             But still with a fear

Whether her life

             Would fulfill all her dreams

Whether her hubby

             Would love or scream

With all the sweet wishes

             Leaves the bequeathed bride

To start a journey on her own

             She takes that crucial stride

She goes amongst the strangers

             Making those subtle adjustment s

Taking all values and ethics

             Leading to her final settlement

All the traditions of her family

             And the norms bequeathed to that bride

All the teachings of her parents

             And the rules she would abide

She showers her unconditional love

             To all her in-laws

And sooner or later wins their hearts

             Without the condition of any flaws

She deserves all the respect

             As all the emotions that she hide

I bow to all those lucky girls

             Who one day become the ‘Bequeathed Bride’