In all those instances when my heart goes low
I search for the clasp of your hand
In all those moments of pain which only I know
I find that beside me you stand
The heart bursts out with this pain
And the results you hardly bother
I felt that you also love me as I do
But realities are different rather
You can’t be the one who be my soulmate
‘Cause she could never make me cry
She will value and respect my feelings
If not, atleast she’ll try
She won’t be as blunt as you
And would never lead me to this suffering
Whatever be the situations
Happiness throughout she would bring
Through my watered eyes I see her face
And slowly-slowly her image clears
And I feel that I have found my soulmate
Oh God! This is again she who comes near
The moment I decided to write
I felt I would write against you
I felt that if you don’t care for me
Then why should I care for you?
But still everywhere I see your face
In every drop of my tear
I try to move far from you
But my effort only brings you near
If you don’t understand my love
Then who else will understand
You may have others to fall back
But now who will hold my hand?
If we can’t walk the same way
Why did you ever show me that?
Why did you show me those sweet dreams?
And left me alone as I felt flat
Sometimes I feel how stupid I was
That I want you in my life
How can I ever think of marrying you
You can’t be the one to be my wife
It is because you don’t love me at all
And whatever feelings you show are fake
You show to me that you love me so much
I don’t understand for whose sake
I remember once my God told me
That don’t marry the girl whom you love the most
‘Cause you may love her but she may not
So marry that girl who loves you the most
If you’re fortunate enough you’ll find that person
Who’ll love you as much as you do
But in case you don’t find her
Then only marry that girl who is in love with you
My God also told me that you’ll find such people
Who hold huge importance in your life
But she may not be the right person
Who’ll support you in every strife
If I say that you ditched me
Would I ever be wrong
This is for you to decide
That in which category do you belong
I’m surprised with your attitude
As the same would be impossible for me
You can take it as any other thing
But it is the life blood for me
Any other girl would touch me
This I would never ever tolerate
I only allow you to come near me
Though you hardly care about this trait
For you it seems it doesn’t matter
You may allow yourself to be touched by anybody else
But for me it’s the biggest sin
The biggest sin that a gospel tells
This proves that you never loved me
You only played with my emotions
And the day you didn’t need me more
You turned your back to our relation
Through different stages of my life
Many people played with my emotions
I thought maybe you’re not one of them
But now you also seem to be of the same creation
I trusted you with blindfolded eyes
And believed you with strongest conviction
But you only seem to think about your own life
Was there selfishness in your affection?
Why did you ever hold my hand?
And why did you ever dare to touch
When you knew that you never genuinely loved me
When you knew that you’ll never love me so much
But I love you with the depth of my heart
And this you’ll never understand
Oh God! If my best friend doesn’t understand
Then who else will understand?
