It was the extent of my introspection
That overruled all the existing confusion
That she was hardly important in my life
When I saw under the light of no compulsion
When she denied to walk my way
My life came shattered in front of me
But soon I realized what God did say
That she was not made for me
That day I introspected to find my soulmate
And I listed down a few of those qualities
Those qualities that seriously lacked in her
Made me doubtful about her parities
If and when I fall in love
I prayed to God about this always
That there shouldn’t be any compulsion what-so-ever
And she should choose me in her own ways
I prayed to God that if I love her
Then her love should be equally strong
I preferred not to convince anybody
As compulsions would make that love wrong
If I felt that I can’t live without her
Then she should also feel the same
Only then the love builds strong
And then the love goes beyond the sake of name
But these things lacked in my best friend
As she hardly had any value for my emotions
She also preferred to live her own life
Which was made out of her own creations
I pleaded once but soon realized
That convincing was against my principles
I wanted it to happen naturally
Only then it would mean sensible
She no doubt played with my emotions
But that was all a different story
I was true with my love & with myself
But she never recognized its glory
I realized that she never deserved
To be the better half of my life
She can be my best friend no doubt
But never ever she can be my wife
I didn’t want to marry someone I can live with
And she was there almost out
I was actually waiting for that person
To marry someone I cannot live without
I hope I find that person soon
Who actually deserves to be my soulmate
I would still pray only for my best friend
I hope she comes back before it’s too late
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